Today was hard.
It's bad enough having to cleanup a space that has become the domain of semi-feral cats. Cat detritus. Cats fighting, fucking, and farting and leaving signs. They used some of my good coats as shredding posts. Then there is the smell. I thought I liked cats.
But there is more.
I had to go through boxes of stuff. My stuff. From the past. And it's just the beginning. I had a hard realization today that this is more than just cleanup or creating a space for myself. I'm having to face psychological complexity. Face myself. Face my defects. Face my past.
I have always avoided facing unpleasant things. I wrestled with that today.
But, the day is done. I made a dent. Got rid of some stuff.
Tonight, gonna drink some beer. Maybe have some Ben and Jerry's. Watch a movie.
Ferel cats are WAY better than ferel RATS! Be glad they are around...Nurture them...Love them! Or, love the rats and mice that will take there places when you send the cats packin'. What did you do with the cats?
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